Monday, June 18, 2007

Accomplished and Ambivilent

Thank you ladies for your kind words of support and commiseration. You remind me why I so value you all. This entire experience is trying and difficult, but you make it much easier.

So, this weekend was CRAZY busy.

Friday, we put our condo up for sale officially - with a real estate agent. As a result on Thursday night and Friday morning I was running around cleaning everything in site. I must get into a normal cleaning schedule, otherwise I'll be going out of my mind with another thing to worry about - is our condo clean enough? Our first open house is on Sunday.

Saturday, my sister's bridal shower. Thankfully, the event went well. Everyone seemed to like the place, food, and decorations. Although, my mother had to cause an argument with me. And the sister-in-law from hell was up to her old tricks. She is the worst kind of bitch - passive aggressive. Sadly and ironically, my mother ended up breaking one of my sister's gifts and really upset her.

Sunday, Father's day went fine. We went to dinner and had a good time. I told Mike that I love him, but that I am grateful that his family is not mine. No offense, but that I had enough of the women in his family because they were way too much like the women in my own family. And that I am very grateful for him, because I can't imagine a better person to be joining our family.

And I finally got to take the HCG shot yesterday. First IUI today, tomorrow will be the second. Again, feeling very ambivilent, so are sperm and eggs. Not sure how many we have - one day it was two at the same size. The next two days, it was one. Honestly, don't think that the tech scanned both ovaries. Because their was one on each side. Who cares? And we have seen better results with the swimmers before - T had that sunburn and then a cold, which he still has. Like I said before, who cares?

Yes, ambivalence is in the air.

12 comments:

Trish said...

I understand the inclination. Auto-pilot isn't bad. Hope is dangerous. I hope you'll be pleasantly surprised, of course. It's always easier to be hopeful for someone else than for yourself. I'll take care of you. :)

Samantha said...

Best of luck with the IUI today and tomorrow.

Sticky Bun said...

Trish is right--it is so much easier to be hopeful for other people than it is for yourself. So, I'll be hoping for you this cycle as well. Good luck tomorrow, and I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the best!

Somewhat Ordinary said...

I'm going to send lots of positive thoughts your way. I'm trying hard to stay positive myself. I have a husband that is already talking in terms like we are already pregnant and if I say something like maybe or might be I get a lecture about positive thinking. So, while I'm trying to think positive for me I'll throw in a few thoughts for you too!

LJ said...

Oh good luck - I know that sometimes ambivalence is the safest place. It isn't negative per se, but we're not in danger of crashing if things don't go the way we want.

So I'll distract you. How was the open house? Any pictures?

PCOSMama said...

Hope those follies and spermies have a nice little party together! Good luck!

I'd be up for seeing open house pics too.... I love looking at homes!

tuesday@tryingforbaby.com said...

Best wishes on the IUI! That's where I'm headed next, eventually.

Baby Blues said...

Good luck! Like I said on my last post, IUI does work and I'm hoping it works for you.

Stacie said...

I hope that this IUI is the one that does it for you.

Shelby said...

Good luck with your IUI! I hope it all went well!!

Ann said...

I understand the ambivalence, but, like Trish, I'll do all my hoping for you. I'm glad you had a busy weekend, so you had at least a few other things to think about besides all this trigger shot crap.

Piccinigirl said...

I'm sorry I'm late offering good luck to you, but I promise I have been thinking VERY GOOD thoughts for you.