Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Cycle 15, Month 24

As we start cycle 15, I feel numb.

When I purchased my last round of Clomid this afternoon, I was reminded by the pharmacist that it was "the last refill on the prescription." I responded with, "I am all too aware."

The last cycle of Clomid only marks the end of the less evasive measures to get us pregnant. After this, the RE has recommended three injectible medicated IUIs. In other words, the beginning of the journey into A.R.T. (assisted reproductive technologies).

Today, I decided it was time to pursue our insurance again. This time, the women told me in not so many words, they can't help us. They have done what they can. They paid for the diagnosis and if the diagnosis is a problem that cannot be fixed by an operation you are on your own.

I knew that this was more than likely their response. Yet, I find myself close to tears.

It only means the beginning of another battle in finding a secondary insurance plan which I knew would be in the future. But, for some reason, I hoped that the information I gathered was going to change the answer.

Frustration, exhaustion, and emotional turmoil is knocking on the door. I need a vacation.


Joei said...

I'm sorry, honey! I think joining RESOLVE might be a good idea... That so stinks that if it isn't an operation, there is nothing they can do!! :(
I'm so sorry!

Anonymous said...

Isn't the biggest cost of IUI the ultrasounds. Well, Ultrasounds are "diagnostic" in nature. Maybe, you could get your ins. company to cover them using this strategy? That way you'd only have to pay for the IUI (about $300) and the drugs,not cheap, but still...
Wonder why can't you do an IUI with Clomid? My RE mentioned injectables to me too. Maybe they're just more reliable? Anyhow, it scares the crap outta me too. I definitely won't be doing that until at least next spring.

Sarah said...

I am so sorry I hope everything works out for you!

Anonymous said...

I have a tendency to give attitude to the pharmacist when picking up my Clomid Rxs. Then I feel badly about it -- but I have to take out my frustration somewhere, right?! I'm sorry you're having problems with insurance. It just adds to the stress of IF.