Monday, July 02, 2007

Now, what cycle is this?

I couldn't tell you. Wow. I think while I was seeking for cautious optimism, I may have found ambivalence. Oh well. The end of this cycle feels much better than my hope filled ones.

Aunt Flo showed today. And I am completely OK. I go in for bloodwork and ultrasound tomorrow. Preparing for our second IUI with G*nal-f. Check one down, two more to go. At this rate, we will be done in August. Very good thing considering our funds end then.

I am so OK. It is kind of scaring me.

So what has been keeping me busy? I've been rereading Harry P*tter 5 and 6. Preparing for the movie next weekend and Hollows. I can't wait, is stating it mildly. I am so very excited. I've been reading up on several sites and taking everyone's opinions in. So intrigued, and VERY excited to see how it all ends.

Also, thinking about starting a part time business doing Calligraphy. I've been going back and forth with it. And I think it may win out. More on that later.

The condo hasn't sold yet. We've had some promising viewers, but no offers. Thinking burying the Saint will be a must. I tried to do it peacefully :).

Maybe that is why I am so not phased by the end of this cycle. Thinking about other things, my therapist will be proud.

Oh yeah, T told me that I shouldn't be pessimistic. I laughed out loud a very hardy laugh. I think he got the point. Who me? Never. Funny, I used to be optomistic, still am, but not for myself.

Ambivalence, it is really kind of nice.

11 comments:

Chili said...

I'm glad you're distracted enough to be okay, but not glad that you need distractions to be okay, if you know what I mean! I hope the next IUI is all you need. :)

Sticky Bun said...

It's so much easier to be optimistic for others than for yourself!

I'm glad that you're feeling okay, but I'm sorry this cycle didn't work out nonetheless. I do really hope that one of these IUIs is the one for you!

Good luck with the condo. People swore by the St. Joseph statue for us, too. We eventually did it, and did get an offer soon afterwards...coincidence? ;-)

Kristin said...

Dianne, I'm so sorry that AF showed up. I know you had low expectations for this cycle, but it's still a disappointment.

Best wishes that you will soon have a buyer lined up for the condo.

Samantha said...

I'm sorry, I know it definitely much easier to be optimistic for others than for yourself.

I need to read up on my Potter too!

Joei said...

I'm so sorry! I was optimistic for you... we'll all continue to be for you! I'm sending you lots of hugs, whether you need them or not!
Lots of love,
Joei

Ellen K. said...

Ambivalence can be kind of freeing, I think. But also confusing.

The calligraphy business idea is a good idea. I've been wanting to learn calligraphy myself.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

I'm sorry that this cycle didn't work, but I am glad to hear that you are doing well and keeping your mind of stuff. I think the business is a great idea!

PCOSMama said...

Glad you have so much to keep you busy when you need it! Sorry the cycle was a bust - definitely hoping the next one works! Maybe your future child is just waiting for you to get settled in a nice new place before making an appearance!

BTW I can't wait for the new H@rry Potter either! Planning to see the movie shortly after it comes out (I'll let the hype die down just a bit first), but I'll probably have a decent wait on the book since I rely on the library for my H@rry Potter! It'll be interesting to see which happens first - the library getting available copies, or a complete set coming out in soft cover so I can buy it.

Kate said...

I hope this next cycle is a successful one for you. Good luck with the condo sale!

Piccinigirl said...

Distraction is the key to anything that irks you, I am glad you found a couple things to keep you busy. Yet, I can't help but optimistic for you, just because.

good luck with the condo (and bury St Joseph) and as for HARRY ..I am as excited as you are...I simply can't wait. It will be the one distraction that I will be looking forward to the next few weeks :)

*hug*

Kami said...

Sorry this one didn't work out. Enjoy your distractions / ambivalence while you have them! Thanks for stopping by my blog too. I hope the next IUI will be your last.