Friday, October 12, 2007

Plowing thru my list.

So, 19 days after my negative (But who is counting?) and I am plowing thru my negative list.

1. Get rid of unused G*nal-f pen. I've offered it to a friend of a co-worker and if she doesn't need it. I must get creative.

Co-worker's friend not on G*nal-f. Contacted one other person that I know of in real life (another friend of a friend). Honestly, I am only attempting to do this this way since I don't know of the legal rammifications of doing it another way. i guess I could call R*solve and see if they have a donation program. Any one have any experience with this?

2. Clean up and package Cl*ar Bl*e F*rtility M*nitor. Give to sister. (Yeah, they probably will start trying in a year or so after the wedding.)

Haven't done this yet. The girl is on her honeymoon. But I also need to figure out how to get the stored information (so that I can keep for just in case). Any one out there with prior experience and knowledge?

3. Call primary care for birth control prescription.

I did this, and have been on the magical pill for a week. The meds were given to me after a mandatory pregnancy test and mental health check up. Adding insult to injury on both counts. I am not crazy for going on the pill! Crap people have thought I was crazy for doing procedures, now others are wondering if I am nuts for stopping. Last time I checked, I am mentally sane just infertile. Remember, my hoohaha and connecting parts is where the problem lies.

4. Ask Mel to move me to "Child Free" Category.
Did this today.

5. Figure out what to do with the rest of my life.

This one I am taking one day at a time. There are many things that I've been mulling around. I think it will be a slow process. I should break it up into steps.

First step is to regain my interests. Sounds like something that I shouldn't have to work on, but I realized recently that infertility has consumed me in many ways. So, I am trying to rekindle my interests. Blog reading has worked in consuming, so I thought that it might help me in a more positive way. As a result, I've added a few new non fertility related blogs.

More steps will follow - I need to figure them out first.

13 comments:

Somewhat Ordinary said...

I think you are doing a great job! To write out this list and really implement these things is terrific. I hope this year is peaceful for you!

LJ said...

This is stellar, I'm really impressed and proud of you - you're just so incredibly strong.

Jackie said...

One time when I was at my clinic, I saw a woman bring in her unused Gonal F pens and my understanding was that the clinic distributed them to patients in need... Maybe your clinic has a similar program? Good luck with getting through the rest of your list and the greater significance of that.

Samantha said...

I know that people have donated unused medication back to their clinic, and I have gotten some extra needles that way when I was running out. It might be an option.

Best of luck with your list.

Sunny said...

You amaze me. I am sure you laugh at that thinking you aren't strong but you are!

Wordgirl said...

Coming back to ourselves -- isn't that the truth.

It IS so consuming --

I'll read your blog no matter where its located.

Pam

Melissa said...

Dianne-
I wish it wasn't this way, but I commend your strength. You are an amazing woman and I know that this year will do you well. When we gave up trying in the near future, I felt empty at first...But in all honesty, things are pretty good right now. Hectic, but good. So, keep us all posted. Love you!

Glitter said...

Baby steps...that all you can do. Sounds like you are taking it one step at a time. I know, somehow, you'll do it in FANTASTIC shoes. : )

Ellen K. said...

You are doing well, Dianne. This is a hard process and a LOT of people never even think about these things. If you feel somewhat lost and searching, that's normal.

I can't believe you had to submit to a mental health check-up before being prescribed BCP. In the esteemed words of Stephanie Tanner, "How rude!"

Re: CBEFM -- if you take out the batteries but don't reset it (resetting = pressing the "M" button until the screen becomes jumbled), that might work. Or you can call the CBEFM helpline/go to the website and ask about storing data for later use. (No need to mention lending it to another person -- you'll hear that it's "unhygienic.")

Kristen said...

I'm glad you are taking things step by step. You really are very inspirational to me. XOXO

sharah said...

Dianne, I think we're in a very similar place right now. When I staring looking at how I wanted to spend my time, the first thing I did was to list out all the things I wished I had time for during the last year. From that, some of the things that I'm planning for the next year or however long are: learning how to use our monster digital camera, taking a cake-decorating class, learning to knit, finishing a large cross-stitch piece I'm working on, refining my cooking skills, and gardening. I hope you're able to find things as well!

Piccinigirl said...

I'm thinking of you...you're so strong and I really admire that.

*hug*

Kami said...

Rekindling your interests sounds like a great idea. I hope you will post about your new hobbies.

Is it ok if I hope you will try again sometime in the future? I know it's your life and all, but I can't help it.