BFN...Thanks ladies for expressing it in words for me.

"Am I The Only One (Whose Ever Felt This Way)"
by the Dixie Chicks

There Is No Good Reason
I Should Have To Be So Alone
I'm Smothered By This Emptiness

Lord I Wish I Was Made Of Stone
Like I Fool I Lent My Soul To Love
And It Paid Me Back In Change

God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

A Heart That's Worn
And Weathered Would Know Better Than To Fight
But I Wore Mine Like A Weapon Played Out Love Like A Crime

And It Wrung Me Out
And Strung Me Out
And It Hung Years On My Face

God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

Now My Sense Of Humor Needs A Break
I See A Shadow In The Mirror
And She's Laughin' Through Her Tears
One More Smile's All I Can Fake

There Is A Wound Inside Me
And It's Bleeding Like A Flood
There's Times When I See A Light Ahead

Hope Is Not Enough
As Another Night Surrounds Me
And It Pounds Me Like A Wave

God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?

God Help Me
Am I The Only One Who's Ever Felt This Way?